Here is the reply that the alleged Ryan Letizia sent to me on this date, from his email address, and the name "Living Picasso".
Susan,
Jim Steinman is the only reason I post on any boards these days. If it has anything to do with Jim it's the only reason I do. Every one of his songs, or creations, have touched a part of my life that (I thought) could never be reached. He knows my deepest emotions (and secrets) and articulates them so eloquently. I am drawn to pay him back: and I've been doing it for years: listening to his music, singing it live, introducing it to all kinds of people. Like it or not, Steinman's music has saved lives and enlightened others. In my view, he falls under the category of a saint. A saint, in their lives, only saves about three people? to be classified a saint? Well Jim has saved thousands wiuth his music. So I go onto his board for the simple reasonto let him know I'm there and I appreciate it.
Other than that, I keep right away. The internet is a very scary place. That board I had told you about. I had forged some close (and intense) relationships with people from there. Then one little insignificant argument, when I was only sticking up for my friend, expelled me and made me out to be a 'narcissitic fascist'. If I still had the evidence I would sue their asses off. I would sue them for all the money this country's got. They'd put this country in debt. To even think about it, I swear, makes me want to break stuff: scream and shout: attack people and go insane. It really really really angers and upsets me. The intnernet is a warped warped horrible world.
Save for the collaborations I've made, and getting my voice out there (to where thousands of people can see from hundreds of destinations): the chatrooms and the boards are the worst place to be. Take it form me, as a bit of advice: they don't know SHIT about you. These people have never met you. These people don't know a god-ddamn thing. As long as you are who you are, and you're happy with it, and you do your best to offer your contributions to this life: it does not matter what they think. And, in the end, I think if you did that (because he did it) at least JIm would be proud. And I gueess I'm happy to hear that you really do know him. I think he's amazing.
I have come close, several times, to meeting him. I tried putting on several of his musicals out here, and I came very close to speaking with him in person about those. But I guess I would be in awe: dumbstruck: because Steinman's music, (but I guess like most music - except his is better IMO) has helped me in immense hard times.
It's been a pleasure speaking to you and thanking you for understanding.
Ryan
Thereafter, he ignored every single email from me to this day. The level of malice inherent in my goodwill met by his ignoring me, was seen as an offensive point of passive-aggression, as I watched the threads he wrote on the Rockman Record turn this very statement he wrote to me, into a lie. And, the text of this email was troubling to me in the fact that he called Jim a saint. I felt that was highly irregular and obsessive, and some other things that Jim and I have discussed in private.
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