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rockfenris2005 05:20 pm UTC 05/23/07 |
| In reply to: | September 13, 2005 "Living Picasso" - pidunk 04:48 pm UTC 05/23/07 |
Because I have to. I owe it to everyone. > Susan, > > Jim Steinman is the only reason I post on any boards these > days. OK, when I wrote that, I had recently had a bad experience on an internet forum. A friend of mine threatened that she was going to slash her wrists and the moderators banned the topic. She didn't really mean it seriously, and we all got into a big argument over it. I was freaked out by it later on. I mentioned this on the Rockman and Susan wrote in about it, comparing the situation to her recent ban on the Rockman. But I was very emotional when I wrote that letter. If it has anything to do with Jim it's the only > reason I do. I don't feel that way at all. I am not that kind of person. I was hugely passionate back then. I'd just been through a horrible traumatizing relationship and I have never gotten over it. People have been through worse but it was my first time. I was very VERY passionate back then and Jim's depicted that. But I am so much happier since then Every one of his songs, or creations, have > touched a part of my life that (I thought) could never be > reached. He knows my deepest emotions (and secrets) and > articulates them so eloquently. I still believe this. But I wouldn't put it this way now I am drawn to pay him > back: and I've been doing it for years: listening to his > music, singing it live, introducing it to all kinds of > people. Yes, I feel compelled to pay him back. As does everyone else who posts here and shares mp3s/etc. with fellow Steinfans. And good on them for it Like it or not, Steinman's music has saved lives > and enlightened others. I once got a letter from a person who was about to commit suicide. They heard "For Crying Out Loud" and it stopped them and changed their minds. I thought it was amazing how music can do that to people. In my view, he falls under the > category of a saint. All musicians who reach out to people fall under the category of a saint, as do many people. Everyone's a saint in some way, it's just they don't get recognized for it. A saint, in their lives, only saves > about three people? to be classified a saint? Well Jim has > saved thousands wiuth his music. As has John Lennon, Bob Dylan, Rodgers & Hammerstein, Andrew Lloyd Webber and all of the others. So I go onto his board > for the simple reasonto let him know I'm there and I > appreciate it. Yes. > Other than that, I keep right away. The internet is a very > scary place. That board I had told you about. I had forged > some close (and intense) relationships with people from > there. Then one little insignificant argument, when I was > only sticking up for my friend, expelled me and made me > out to be a 'narcissitic fascist'. Yes, I have explained this. If I still had the > evidence I would sue their asses off. I would sue them for > all the money this country's got. See how angry I was? I was so angry about the situation I didn't realize what I was saying. My past can shock me, some of the things I've said have thrown me off my chair. And everyone says that about themselves. My good friend was shocked to read a damning email she once sent me, in tears that she could actually say some of that stuff. Honestly. We had a huge conversation about it. They'd put this country > in debt. To even think about it, I swear, makes me want to > break stuff: scream and shout: attack people and go > insane. It really really really angers and upsets me. The > intnernet is a warped warped horrible world. God, look how passionate that sounds. That sounds so wrong and awful. I would never even dream of doing that > > Save for the collaborations I've made, and getting my > voice out there (to where thousands of people can see from > hundreds of destinations): the chatrooms and the boards > are the worst place to be. It is when people like Susan prowl them and scare people. And they are the worst place to be sometimes. But you have to develop a thick skin. Take it form me, as a bit of > advice: they don't know SHIT about you. These people have > never met you. These people don't know a god-ddamn thing. > As long as you are who you are, and you're happy with it, > and you do your best to offer your contributions to this > life: it does not matter what they think. And, in the end, > I think if you did that (because he did it) at least JIm > would be proud. And I gueess I'm happy to hear that you > really do know him. I think he's amazing. You know what, damn it all, I still believe that. I hope Susan believes that. But I also hopes she leaves me and anyone else alone who she might be bothering. I'm sorry if I offended her, but some of the things she's done and said have offended, frightened and scared me in so many ways. > > I have come close, several times, to meeting him. I tried > putting on several of his musicals out here, and I came > very close to speaking with him in person about those. So what?? But > I guess I would be in awe: dumbstruck: because Steinman's > music, (but I guess like most music - except his is better > IMO) has helped me in immense hard times. It helped me through that relationship. I've never HAD hard times LOL > > It's been a pleasure speaking to you and thanking you for > understanding. > > Ryan Well, you didn't see what she said either. Perhaps Susan should post her original message. Because all I saw was a very comforting person, like an old woman, who seemed really nice and cool to get advice from. Then all of a sudden I have thousands of replies in my inbox and I'm scared out of my pants. | |
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